saltine

Have you ever been glorious
oh not likely
crackers like saltines
satisfying but not satiating
or the reverse
dough
that's what I'm made of
some unremarkable dough
it'll keep you alive
but god
what for
I had two teachers once
both tall women with large breasts
strong and uninterested in being made small
they took saltines
threw them in gallon ziplocs
doused them in canola oil
ranch powder, cayenne, and chili flakes
shook them up 
laid them out to soak up the flavor
flipping them hour after hour
until those saltines
tasted like life good life
I craved it
so I made them, too
filled tupperware full of the mixture
slicking the saltines
shaking them
flipping them
begging them to become more than what they were designed to be
I'd lick the measuring cup clean
run my finger across the curves of the containers
sucking the tips
my tongue wet and raw
willing the spices and flavors into my body
a desperate transmutation
I'm still dough
always will be
but
I know what tastes good